It's been a while since I've updated just on me. This is like my online diary, in a sense. I just came back from OBS, Outward Bound Singapore, last friday and it really was an awesome experience that I'll never be able to forget.

"There's something about OBS that stays with you for life."

This week's been a pretty terrible one, both good and bad. Been trying to let go of all the hurt but it's getting too much, you know. And I feel like such a failure all the time and the scars inside and out are getting harder to hide. 

I've been trying to read more again, because it really does take you to a whole different world and this world sucks. I really hope no one I know sees this post, because I'd hate you and your pity. I can't appear weak in front of them, then my efforts in faking smiles and bravery would go to waste, would it not? X 

I'm trying to get better, I really am. But some scars are too deep, and I can't heal that fast. 

A singer for God. A baseball jacket. My own laptop. Own a pair of Toms & Vans. Pierce my ears. Learn how to play the guitar. Dance in the rain. Ride the Tower of Terror in Tokyo Disneysea again. Master nail art. Learn how to do a french braid. I wanna be blown away, I wanna be swept off my feet, I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe. I wanna be lost in love, I wanna be your dream come true, I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you. I want to fall in love. I want to look at the clouds with him. I want to find myself again. I want to be happy.