It's 2.42am and I'm in bed with my laptop cause I can't sleep and I just did the most difficult thing in my life. I hope this doesn't change things and I'm really grateful for an amazing friend like you. I just want to get better and move past all this and start over.

I want to get my life back on track with a positive attitude and a different perspective and I need to draw closer to God. I'm starting over so this time I can do things right.

A singer for God. A baseball jacket. My own laptop. Own a pair of Toms & Vans. Pierce my ears. Learn how to play the guitar. Dance in the rain. Ride the Tower of Terror in Tokyo Disneysea again. Master nail art. Learn how to do a french braid. I wanna be blown away, I wanna be swept off my feet, I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe. I wanna be lost in love, I wanna be your dream come true, I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you. I want to fall in love. I want to look at the clouds with him. I want to find myself again. I want to be happy.