I'm sorry I'm really a mess right now 

I'm trying my best to get it together somehow

Lots of things happened today that I never want to experience again. I can't believe I did that. And I know, shame on me. I'm pathetic and I disappointed you. I understand. I don't belong here, I shouldn't even be here. And it's okay, I wouldn't want someone like me in my life either. 

Tell me where love goes when it's gone

Tell me where hearts go when they go wrong 

Suddenly someone is no one

I've come undone 

A singer for God. A baseball jacket. My own laptop. Own a pair of Toms & Vans. Pierce my ears. Learn how to play the guitar. Dance in the rain. Ride the Tower of Terror in Tokyo Disneysea again. Master nail art. Learn how to do a french braid. I wanna be blown away, I wanna be swept off my feet, I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe. I wanna be lost in love, I wanna be your dream come true, I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you. I want to fall in love. I want to look at the clouds with him. I want to find myself again. I want to be happy.