Hello! Haven't blogged in so long. ):

I've been so busy lately! There's the science competition preparations, holiday homework which I should really start on, church activities and friendship problems. It's all taking a toll on me and I feel awful. 

I blame myself really, I'm just so lazy and uninspired to do anything. I'M SO MAD AT MYSELF I CAN'T EVEN. 

Oh I might blog about my Japan trip soon when we get all the pictures into the computer. Just a note. (:

Friendship problems. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. Why are all of you changing? Or were you just always like this and I was too blind to see it? I mean, I get that people change as they grow, I do. But you're changing for the worse and I care about you so I want to help. But every time I see you, you become a bigger *yknow what I'm saying* than before.

*Side note* I'm trying not to curse anymore ever since post-encounter. (: 

"I admit, I really miss how things used to be. But I can also admit, that I've accepted the fact that things have changed." 

I used to know you so well... But if you're going to continue being like that, I am going to live my life without you. I care about you but if you don't want my help and keep on treating me this way. One day, I'll stop. And other days, so will everyone else. 

Change for the better before it's too late, please. I'd hate to see the day when you realise you pushed away the only people who ever really cared for you. 

Sigh I'm honestly just so, so tired. 

A singer for God. A baseball jacket. My own laptop. Own a pair of Toms & Vans. Pierce my ears. Learn how to play the guitar. Dance in the rain. Ride the Tower of Terror in Tokyo Disneysea again. Master nail art. Learn how to do a french braid. I wanna be blown away, I wanna be swept off my feet, I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe. I wanna be lost in love, I wanna be your dream come true, I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you. I want to fall in love. I want to look at the clouds with him. I want to find myself again. I want to be happy.